To someone that's more than just a bestfriend. :'((

I've been crying for hours now. :( I'm so sorry for leaving you yesterday. I know how much pain I've caused you. :( If our good relationship ends now, I don't know if I'd be able to forgive myself for making this to happen. :( How I wish I could turn back time. :( If I had the chance to turn back yesterday, I'll never leave you, like I did. :(

I was asking forgiveness to you since yesterday but it seems that you can't really forgive me now. :( You're always saying that I left you and I couldn't change the fact that I did. :( I'm so sorry. :'( It's really my fault now. :'( I shouldn't have left you that day, I should have stayed instead. :'(


If ever you won't forgive me for what I did, I know I deserve it. :( You deserve someone far better than me, someone who wouldn't hurt and leave you. :( And I guess, I'm not her. :( Because I'm just someone who caused you so much pain. :( I always wanted to be your bestfriend but I guess we will never be now. :( Because I'm someone who is not worthy to be your bestfriend or your friend. :'(

Thank you for everything. I was lucky that I was able to find someone like you. You're the best friend everyone should have because you're someone that's worth sharing everything with. :'( I love you, I really do. :'( How I wish you would believe me but now that it's over, you feel that everything I'm telling are lies and insincerity. :(


The moment that you told me that you liked me, I kept the feelings I had for you. I could have just told you that our feeling was mutual; that I loved you more - but I didn't, because what we had was so special. I was afraid that if our relationship would not work, and because of that, our friendship will end and we'll be apart. I only chose what situation would make us stay longer but guess, I blew it. :(( It's now over and I have to stick with it now. :'( I'm so sorry. :'( I love you so much. :'(